Sober in the Summer 2019

sober in the summer
I almost never crave a drink anymore, but that first warm weekend, I always get flashes where I want one.

They are never more than a few seconds, but images of margaritas or a cold glass of white wine flash in my mind’s eye. 

By now, my brain goes on autopilot to remind me of the reasons it’s not worth it to actually have one, but whether you are new to sobriety or have been alcohol-free for years, it’s worth having a strategy to stay sober in the summer.

Romance Vs Reality

sober summer
I mean first of all, my hair has NEVER looked this good.

There’s no chance you aren’t romanticizing this.  What is the image in your head?  For me, I picture myself in a sundress, at an outdoor café drinking white wine and laughing breezily with a girlfriend. It seems so pleasant.  But here’s where I need to ask myself three things:

  • How is this picture inaccurate?
  • In reality – what happens next?
  • What am I really looking for?

What’s Wrong With This Picture?

Ah, well I suppose in that scenario I am not 30 pounds heavier from all the extra calories I was ingesting from alcohol.  My posture is not slumped from downing most of the bottle.  I am not saying things I’d rather keep to myself due to lack of inhibitions.

And Then What Happens?

woman on couch
Well this just screams summer fun

In terms of what happens next – in my fantasy I have a lovely time, drink 1-2 glasses of wine and then continue with my day kind of like it is now, I am productive, relaxed and happy. 

But I know what really happens next.  I would drink slightly more than is socially acceptable while out, and then pick up more wine on the way home. 

I would spend the rest of the evening drinking and watching tv, getting more and more depressed. That doesn’t sound like as much fun.  It’s definitely not the feeling I was looking for in my daydream.   

In AA they call this strategy “playing the tape all the way through” and it’s a very effective deterrent.  You could also call it “facing reality”.  It may not be the reality for everyone, but I’ve repeated the experiment enough times, I know the result.

What’s The Vibe

What is it about my fantasy image that’s so appealing?  It’s not necessarily the wine. 

I’m not picturing myself alone on a couch with it… The appeal is the fun of the moment.  The laughter with my friend, the comfort of a flowy dress and warm sun on my skin.  The luxury of not having 1,000 things to do and obligations to meet.

Ding! Ding! Ding! Yup, I’m overwhelmed and need to relax.  How can I do that ASAP?  A bath later?  Order in dinner so I don’t have to cook or clean up and use that time to read?

Beyond that, there’s no reason why I can’t make this happen (sans wine).   I can ask my husband to watch my son (or call a babysitter) and arrange an early dinner out with a friend later in the week where we can eat outside.  All the benefits of my daydream, none of the drama.  I know I will have fun and wake up the next day glad I went, instead of full of regret.

Parties, And BBQs, And Weddings, Oh My!

One of the reasons staying sober in the summer seems more overwhelming is that there tend to be a lot more social events.  People want to get out of the house more since it’s finally nice outside.  The longer days make it easier to go out and do things, rather than huddle up at home trying to stay warm.

Still, looking at all the events as your calendar fills up, it can make it seem like summer is just one long drinking event. 

Part of this is that you’ve skewed your thinking.  Yes, there is usually alcohol at social events, but for most people, that is not the POINT of the event.  The point is to get together with people you like and have fun! 

So, before you head to each of these events, try the exercise above.  Even if you initially picture it with a drink in your hand, figure out what else you are doing in that picture to have fun, and then reset your focus on that.

Have A Plan

Make like a Boyscout and be prepared.

Drinks

mocktails
Mmm. Mockery.

What are you going to drink when you’re there?  If it’s a party at someone’s house, I love to bring along some Q ginger beer (it’s spicy and not overly sweet – I order a 12-pack each month). 

Or if it’s at an event, experiment to see what you like that feels fun.  Cranberry and seltzer with lime has been a sober favorite for years, but you can also try more festive things – most places can make a virgin mojito. It gives you that fancy cocktail feeling without the brutal summer hangover you get from the extra dehydration. 

The Buddy System

If at all possible, go with someone who knows you are sober and supports you. 

Bonus points if they are sober too. 

If not, tell a sober friend where you are going and let them know you might text them from the bathroom if you are finding it difficult.  It’s amazing how five minutes of texting with someone who gets it can save you.

Make like a tree and get out of there

tree
It’s leave.

Sometimes it’s just too much.  If you are not having fun or are feeling tempted, there is nothing wrong with making a gracious exit. 

You do not have to tell the host the real reason.  Fake a text that you have to get home or say you feel like you’re getting a migraine. 

If you are going to the event with someone, explain beforehand that you may have to make a hasty exit.  If they have a problem with that, take separate cars or agree to have one of you take a cab home if need be.

It will get easier with time, but I find there still comes a point at most parties where people start getting to a level of drunkenness that I don’t really want to be around.  The pitch of the room gets louder and people get slightly more annoying, and you know it’s time to head out.

Oh, The Irony

sober summer funI expected my first sober summer to be a downer.  I figured I’d be uncomfortable and feel like I was missing out.  The shocking thing was, it was one of the best summers I’d ever had! 

I went out and had fun much more often, and did so many different exciting activities that I’d never had the energy for before. 

I went to places I never thought to go because there wouldn’t be alcohol there. 

This truly is a season of wonder.  Don’t waste a minute of it under a haze or shutting out the sunshine against a hangover.

Now go out and have the best summer ever!

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Setting boundaries has never been my strong suit. If someone needed help with something, I was always first to volunteer. If someone asked me a favor, of course I was going to help them out. That’s just being a nice person, isn’t it?

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doormat

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baby
Ahem.

When is setting boundaries necessary?

There’s a shortcut to figuring out where you need to set a boundary, and that is if you are feeling resentful. This is a clue that you have said yes to something that you really should have said no to. Sometimes this feels ridiculous, like telling a relative that you don’t appreciate them insulting you, but what can I say? Sometimes people are clueless or just don’t think. And they won’t get it until you tell them.

If you haven’t been saying no to being treated this way, you’ve been saying yes. I understand why. Sometimes it feels easier to grit your teeth through it than to turn it into a whole big thing. But it doesn’t have to be a scene. It can be a surprisingly easy conversation.

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And the same people still like me. I even get more respect at work!

What do I say?

Setting a boundary is not the same as snapping. It’s not finally having enough of your colleague’s dumping work on you and screaming, “Screw you and the horse you rode in on!!!”

horse
How did I come into it?

But how do you say no without all of a sudden seeming like you aren’t a team player?

First offense

It’s far easier to set a boundary the first time. Nip that shit in the bud.

spray bottle
Effective perhaps, but not exactly subtle

If someone asks you to do something you don’t want to do, simply say, “I’m sorry, I can’t.” Don’t elaborate. If they press you, just say, “I have too much on my plate right now.” If you add details, they will start trying to offer “helpful suggestions” as to how you might be able to squeeze it in. Don’t give them that window.  Asked and answered.

If it’s someone saying something that bothers you, call it out. This is HARD for me, but I’m learning. Instead of laughing it off, if it’s someone I generally like, I’ll say something like “Ouch. Jeez.” This will usually cause them to backpedal.   If it’s someone I don’t like, I’ll just say, “What do you mean by that?” followed by raised eyebrows and silence. It usually brings the conversation to a screeching halt and makes the person feel awkward as hell.

Ongoing behavior

So that’s all well and good, but what about the things you haven’t nipped in the bud.   Things that are so long-running they have become an expectation? This is a little more work but doesn’t have to be a huge blowout. A good script is:

I know in the past I’ve _____________________________. I’m afraid I just can’t do that anymore. My plate is too full (OR when you say X I feel Y.) I’m not saying it’s your fault because I’ve never said anything about it before. But it’s just something I can’t deal with anymore. I hope you can respect that.

For a while, I would quake in my boots as I said this kind of thing. My heart still races a bit when I do. What if they say no? What if they yell? What if I cry? Or worse, what if I chicken out?

Michelle Obama and the Dalai Lama

I knew that if I tried to do this off the cuff, I would stumble and apologize my way through it. Not terribly effective. So I asked myself, “What would someone who really had their shit together say? Like how would Michelle Obama set a boundary?” Like a goddam queen that’s how. She’d be kind, but dignified and clear. She would expect her boundary to be accepted.

And so sometimes I still pretend I’m her when I have to set a boundary. Yes, it may be somewhat ridiculous, but it gives me the confidence boost to actually do it instead of just imagining scathing conversations putting the person in their place and hoping they figure it out through telepathy.

michelle obama
I’m going to have to pass…

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Don’t take the bait. Have compassion for them. Think Dalai Lama. You are asking them to exert more effort now. Instead of spilling out all the resentment you have had building up, try to see their side.  Be supportive of them.

dalai lama
You need to back off asshole.

This may seem counterintuitive, but most of the time, if you show people you are really on their side, you will end up with a better relationship because of it. If they see you aren’t blaming them, just asking something different of them, it’s usually a much smoother ride.

This does not need to be a big confrontation.   It’s just a conversation between two people. You are stating what is going on with you. They will state their feeling on it. You will try to figure out how to fit the pieces together better so that you are both heard.

Tricky. Very tricky.

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So why did I do things I didn’t want to? I wanted people to like me. I still do. But it turns out that’s not a terribly effective way to get them to like who you really are. I remember trying to make the popular girls like me in sixth grade by giving them candy. It worked for a week. Then they decided it was kind of pathetic. It was a lesson I should have learned then, but if people don’t like you for who you are, giving them things isn’t going to to do either. Sure, they may see you as USEFUL, but who wants to be used?

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Oh, I’m fine.

Another side of this was that I didn’t tend to ask others for help, and if I did, I felt terrible about it. I would ask for help only in desperate situations and say, “It’s really no big deal if you can’t do it.” I figured they were just like me and would know that if I was saying something, it was serious.  I also assumed they resented the hell out of it.

stuck dog
Only if you’re not busy with something else.

This is not honest. This is not fair. And it is not how I would want others to treat me.

If someone says to me, “Look, I feel like I’m drowning. I really need your help with this. Would you mind?” It actually makes me feel good to help them out, even if it means taking on a bit more work.   Asking in this way shows trust and vulnerability. It calls on friendship, rather than asking someone to be your personal assistant.

Apparently, there are people out there who ask things of others and 100% expect the other person to say no if they don’t want to do it. This was shocking to me. But it also struck me as really reasonable and fair.

Toddlers

So what if you enforce a boundary, and someone breaks it? You need to follow through. If it’s something that they have gotten away with before, you probably will have to show them you mean business. That means NOT caving and saying yes to things you don’t want to do. It means walking away from someone if they say something rude. You don’t need to yell. Just remind them, either with your words or your actions, “We’re not doing that anymore. Remember?” You have to think of them like a toddler.

angry toddler
Actually, I think I’m being quite reasonable about this.

Toddlers are the ultimate litmus test of whether you can hold a boundary. They will test and test and test your limits. I have created a monster at times because I didn’t want to make my son sad, so I failed to follow through on a boundary I set. “Okay if you throw Elmo out of the bed again, I’m not coming back in here to put him back in… ”

Anonymous toddler waits 30 seconds. Throws Elmo. Cries. Very loudly. All I want is to eat some dinner. Hoping it will be the end of it, I go back in and replace the smelly red creature. “I mean it this time. No throw! I’m serious!” But I have now taught my son that I will not follow through. He proceeds to try every trick in the book to avoid going to sleep. If I had just let Elmo sit there and suffered through ten minutes of grief over it, I would have saved myself weeks of headaches.

The lesson? Grit your teeth and follow through.

Start small

This is some advanced level adulting. I don’t pretend it’s easy. It’s not something where you can flip a switch and BOOM! You take no more bullshit! If you’re feeling nervous then start small. Don’t march into your family holiday party ready to tell your mother everything she’s ever done that bothered you. I like to think of it like a video game from the 90s. Slay a few easy bosses. Work your way up to the big ones.

Tell the barista that no, you didn’t order skim milk, and yes, you would like a new one.

latte
Mmm. Tastes like concession.

Actually say what you want for dinner tonight rather than saying, “Whatever you want.”

Every time you stand up for what you want, it’s a win. I’m not saying you should never compromise. I’m saying it shouldn’t be your default setting.

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I’m not perfect at this by any means. I’m just learning.  But it’s given me a sense of freedom I never had before.  And it’s something I want to keep working on to model for my son. Not only so he learns how to set his own boundaries, but so that he can see in action that women DO say “No” to things, and that “No” must be respected.”

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